Chubby cheeks

Here it is, time to face the scale and be honest. I have not weighed in since December 3 (whoops) and I was waiting until monday to finally step on the scale and see the damage done over Christmas. I’m only 3 days late, posting! I did weigh in on Monday though.  I swear!

k I’ll stop wasting time with words…

Current weight: 153

so that’s +2 lbs from December 3. Which is WAY less than I thought it was going to be but I have been very motivated again so maybe it was a good thing I had the Christmas blues or whatever the hell that was.

Since January 2, I have worked out every day, which some say is bad for you. I haven’t done crazy hard workouts daily, just moved everyday. I ran a total of 26.81km last week, yes all outside because it was finally nice enough to not be a chicken shit. One of the runs turned into a 9.26km run because it was just so nice out I didn’t want to stop.

I can’t lie about my exercise over Christmas. It was nonexistent. After December 16 I kind of shut down and had a bit of a depression, not wanting to move from the couch or do anything but stuff my chubby cheeks full of food even though that did make me feel worse. WHY would I do that?  No real reason, but I did and now I’ve got to work those chubby cheeks off to pay for it.

Anyways I’m feeling way better even though after calling my mom this morning she told me I sound depressed and sad all the time… ????  I’M NOT, I promise.

This week so far I’ve put in 6.61 km but on the treadmill. Oh right I told my other blog folks about my goal. I’m going to run 125 km in January which is about 25km a week.  Ok I actually put in a bit more on the treadmill but I forgot to check once I was done after that 45 minute period, dammit so I’m going to add-on 2km because I did at least that.  so, so far this week I’m now at 8.61km. 

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Edmonton River Valley- Took this shot when I had to walk because I got stuck behind a group of 3 walkers.

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Nikki-looking more like Rippa arms every day

I have had a fantastic week! You know when you’re so busy you don’t even get to see your husband to be (seriously hate the word fiance, dunno why but I hate calling Ryan that. I’m fine with Husband though.. soon enough) Ok so I seriously saw Ryan when I woke him up at 2pm on Thursday this week to give him a kiss goodbye, other wise I have been so busy, but it’s been great because I have been working on my weekly goals in between working both jobs and now coaching a jr. high basketball team.

Here’s how it went:

 1. Track all food on MFP and complete my entries-I never finish my entries after lunch. 

Mon-today I have done this! after I complete an entries it tells me if I continued to eat this way (good or bad) I would weigh so much in so many weeks.  Not sure how tonight’s dinner will go as it’s my work Xmas party but I’ll try to still guess at how many calories things are and put them in.  If not tomorrows a new day and I’ve done well the rest of this week.

2. Do 20 push-ups before bed (a day) home or work

Ok so I haven’t done my 20 push-ups a day before bed, but I’ve done 20 pushups a day during workouts.

3. fit in 4 work outs- Monday night (might have to be at 10pm), Tuesday morning, Wednesday morning, and Thursday morning.  I’m not counting the snowboarding I’m doing with work as a workout, it’s just extra, same with Ball Hockey.

I did it! Monday night was an hour and a half at home and I started it at 9pm! please hold back the applause.  It was a success because I do hate working out in the evening, but once I got going I wanted to keep going.

Tuesday morning I only had time for a 30 minute workout but I fit it in (at home- gotta love having the treadmill and weights and NIKE training, seriously kicks my butt every time)

Wednesday- I met up with Jill (yay we both made time even with our cray schedules) at the YMCA and we fit in a nice hour arm and cardio work out.  Showed Jill the sprint training I’ve been doing to get speedy for ball hockey!  Plus after this hour workout I went home and shovelled for 40 minutes… omg my arms were dead

Thursday- went to the gym after work (9am) and did 40 mis on the elliptical (my hip and calf have been bugging me again) and then just 20 on the treadmill cause I wanted to do my sprint training.  I had done weights mon-wed so I figured I’d just do my assisted pull ups and be done. 

Side not on the pull-ups- I downed the weight to 80lbs, meaning I was pulling up 70lbs of my own weight (I think I had it last set at 90 or 100 I’ll have to look back in my blogs/exercise notes) and SHITE was it so much harder.  I did 3 rounds of 10 reps, then 8, then 5.  Gah gotta keep at it, but pretty sure my work is paying off… no?

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looking more like Kelly Rippa arms booooya!

4. My MFP pal (that I have been doing the weekly challenges with) and I have come up with this weeks goal of fitting more fruit and veggies into our daily meals  so my goal is fitting in at least 8 servings a day.

I have been killing it on the fruit/veggie eating goal.  Salads, oranges for snacks, and omg can I tell you I feel fuller longer or that a little mandarin orange tides me over till i get home and cook dinner! Not that I didn’t know this but I had started to slack on how many f/v I was eating

so as long as I fit some working out in this weekend and don’t over do it at the 2 xmas parties I’m going to I’m thinking good things will happen on the scale! Happy Weekend!

Nikki-new goals

I have new goals! and I’m hoping my readers will help me stay motivated and accountable! 

I still want to lose about 10-15 lbs but that’s not my total focus.  I feel flabby and weak.  I want to feel as strong as I did when I was only doing weights twice a week with my trainer so that is the basis of my new goal.

I feel good, I really do at my size, but there are some of my clothes that feel tight even though the chart below shows that I have lost inches in the last few months.   I think it’s mainly that I have been focusing on running so much instead of weight training and not really counting all my calories so I feel bigger than I maybe actually am because I don’t feel as strong as I did.  Oh right, for those of you who didn’t know I have been blogging from Nikkiinhighgear since my last post here, I also ran 2 half marathons in 2012! one with Jill in May and one in September all by my lonesome lol.   I’ve really enjoyed both and plan on doing a few more next spring/summer/fall, Any who here is the chart.

June 2011 July  2012 October 2012
Upper Arm  12.5 11 10.5
Chest 39.5 38 37
Waist 34.25 31 32
ABD 39 37 35.5
Hips 42 42 41
Thigh 27 23.5 23
Calf 14.75 15 15
Weight 171 152 152

So really I don’t feel like I’m in a bad position at all with where my inches have gone up a little or gone down a little.  But here’s to building muscle and making those inches even smaller!

MY NEW GOALS-to be complete by March 27 2013 which is 22 weeks away!

1. Weight train 2-3x weekly

2. To be able to do 20 regular push ups with no breaks and without being totally out of breath after.

3. Reach goal weight of 140lbs

this is a goal I don’t know if I’ll be able to actually accomplish, but I’m going to try!

4. Do one unassisted pull up

I have NEVER had enough upper body strength to do even one pull up, but I would like to work on that.  If I don’t get there, at least I tried but I would like to know that if I fell off a cliff and was hanging there I would have enough upper body strength to pull myself up!

Here is the dreaded part that I think makes me most accountable, sharing my before photos!

as much as I am happy at where I am in my skin, I’m not always so confident in showing off my skin. I wont go into a list of “I hates” about my body because that’s just lame and I don’t feel like being lame today (though I do have those days, we all do)

October 2012
152 lbs
Can you tell I didin’t know what to do with my hands? lol also sorry about the bed head!

 

so  here’s a list of things I like: My legs are more toned from all the running I have been doing, I love the dorky smile I have plastered on my face, Even though my boobs are a full cup size smaller than when I started this entire journey I think they’re still looking Great!, I actually really like the entire middle/side photo I think I look very strong, I’ve always had this fascination about collar bones that pop out just slightly an I think mine are about as perfect as pop out can be.

Alright thanks for checking in! more to come soon!

Nikki-Weigh in Day

I’m bored with the title “weigh in day” but I’m not feeling very creative this lovely morning so I’ll think of something better next week (suggestions are always welcome)

I’ll get right to it…

Current weight: 152lbs

That means I’m -1lb  (it does seem like it should be more after 2 weeks but it’s not a +number so that’s a positive)

That also means I get my first reward, which is crafting!!!  Yes, sometimes my friends make fun of me for how excited I get when I make cards or scrapbook, but I just find that it’s so relaxing.  It also makes me happy.  Time to relax is also a huge part of good self-care, which I think is also very important when working on taking care of your body.  If I didn’t take any time to relax and unwind I know that I would work out less and pay less attention to what I ate, because that’s what I did to myself to reach 181 pounds. 

 When I step back and take a look at my life now and my life say 5 years ago when I was in school, I’ve hugely improved on my self-care.  While I was I was in school full-time  I also: worked full-time, had a relief position and had a practicum with school.  I was literally busy 20/7.  Yes I say 20/7 because I usually found time to sleep about 4 hours a night.   I’m not complaining, I know there are people out there who  do more than that just to get by but I know I’ve looked back and thought “how did I do it?”

Here’s how: By letting my health suffer.

 I didn’t have time to think about what I was fueling my body up with, I didn’t have time to get enough sleep , I didn’t have time to workout, I have no idea how I managed to start dating Ryan in between all of that because I didn’t have time for myself.    I made it through that period but it took a toll on my body.  If you haven’t seen the toll, look back through my posts to look at me at 181 pounds. 

I’m happy at where I’m at today.  I still have 2 jobs, one relief position and I’ve learned how to say no to shifts to fit in time to chill out.   I also have learned how to plan around my day to get a workout in, though I still prefer to go first thing in the AM to get it done and over with.  I am 1lb away from reaching a 30lb weight loss and am very excited about it!! All in all it’s been a good week and I plan to “cash in” on my crafting sometime next week because I’m off Mon-Fri.  Hope everyone has a great weekend-get your workouts in!

Nikki-Rewards

I’ve recently started following another  blogger-Roundinfinity who wrote about rewarding herself every time she loses weight but not rewarding herself with food since that is often what us dieting folks will do.  Ok if drop 5 pounds this week I can eat an entire cake! that’s pretty much how my brain works anyways.  I decided I would borrow her idea and with each pound I drop I will reward myself.  The biggest reward will be when I reach my goal weight.  Here is what I’ve come up with.

  1. 152Crafting ( Stampin, scrapbooking, cards, whatever I feel like.  I have a new spare room that is perfect for crafting)
  2. 151Get a new book on my Kindle (Then I can read during my next reward)
  3. 150Bubble Bath (Maybe Ryan would even be so kind as to prepare this bath for me haha)
  4. 149Spa Day @ home (I’m to poor to pay for it, or it could be cheapness, but I can totally do an at home mani/pedis and facials! anyone wanna join?)
  5. 148Movie date! (Ryan said he would take me to a movie of my choice)
  6. 147Record new Charity Case Songs (Yes, I’m in a band, we only write songs about one thing-Stacey.  Hopefully a rock song will be next)
  7. 146Play wii for hours (I sometimes have days where I’ll play wii with friends for like 8 hours… nerdy, why yes sometimes I am.   Jen, Em and Aline you guys better be ready for this.  Wii party hardy)
  8. 145Get a Massage! (Can’t wait for this one!)
  9. 144Get a new Toque (I love Toques, or Beanies as some friends call them)
  10. 143Get a hair cut (I really, really need my hair trimmed, it’s been at least 6 months)
  11. 142Photo Shoot (I’m hoping Jen and Emma agree to this one! and not just a photo shoot of me, photos of the wolfpack) 
  12. 141Get my eyebrows threaded (I like it better than waxing)
  13. 140 Shopping Spree. ( I need new clothes and got rid of a bunch (donated them my kids at work) so I will need new clothes, or at least a few items.) AND to add-on to this final reward Ryan said he would cook me a healthy meal of my choice! What a sweetheart!

 

Ok if this list isn’t motivation, I don’t know what else is!?  I’m also planning on putting $10 away for every pound so that I will actually have some money to spend when my I get to my shopping spree.  That way I can spend guilt free (plus i have a few gift cards I’ve been saving for months) I wouldn’t say no to anyone who wants to donate or match this amount either 🙂  Just playing!   Alright time to finish my coffee and do some at home yoga!

Nikki: Weigh in Day- Week 20

As usual when I have sleep over shifts on the sun/mon I was going to do my weigh in today.   This was supposed to be the last weigh in, but since Jill is out of town we will “finish” next week.  I figure since it’s less than a week away everyone can wait for my final weight, measurements, body fat 5% and my final before/semi-mid/end photos!

I say “finish” because I’m going to continue blogging after our final weigh in next week.  I’ve found blogging has helped me stay motivated and  I have learned to set goals for myself again.  I don’t always reach my goals when I set them but it gives me something to strive towards and work hard for.  I know my target weight goal will not be reached next week, and I’m more than ok with that.  I’m proud of all the weight I have lost and the hard work I’ve put in. 

 I know that Stress affects me and I haven’t quite learned out how to deal with it without doing a bit of food medication so that’s something I will continue to work on, especially since with 3 jobs I don’t always have time to do stress relief at the gym.  I have done much better than I used to with managing stress since I started this blog but I know I can do better! I’m sure once Ryan and I move most of the pressure with disappear until the next big thing.

 I’ve reach the 2 other goals I set at the beginning which were to fit into my target dress and work out 5 times a week.  Want to see proof?  Check out these silly photos that my lovely besties took of me.  Emma was behind the lens and Jen was on props and wind machine.  The dress is lose enough to zip up entirely and needs a few alterations because it’s to lose in places!  Or could the real issue be that I’ve lost all the weight in my chest???? Now I also need to find an event to wear this dress to, may have to wait until spring since it’s so chilly now! 

 

 Jill-the “Whatever It Takes” photo is for you 🙂

 

Nikki: An embarrassing look back

Lately I’ve been looking at old photos to think back about some fun times.  I didn’t expect it to be so difficult. 

This picture here is June 2010 at Jill’s Birthday.  I can hardly stand to look at myself. (Ryan actually just walked by and told me “babe you look so big in that picture.  I can see just how much weight you’ve lost now”)

I know my confidence was lacking at this point in time.  I smiled even though I didn’t really feel that a smile proved I was happy but to look back and see just how big I had gotten is a shock even to me.  I feel sad, looking at this photo and thinking about how unhappy I was at that time.

It’s embarrassing to look at these photo’s.  There’s some that are so upsetting to me that I just want to delete them and erase that time from my memory.  Ryan and I took a trip to Hawaii before these pictures at Jill’s Birthday and I remember not wanting to put pictures on Facebook because I was so embarrassed.   If you looked in that photo album of Hawaii you would also notice that 9 out of 10 photos were of Ryan as I was ashamed to have my photo taken.   

The funny thing about being embarrassed of having my photo taken is I love being photographed and, not to sound conceded, but I am very photogenic.  Jen and Emma plan days to just take photos and if you have me on FB you’ve obviously seen many of those photos.  So to get to a point in life where I was embarrassed by the photos I was in and to not want to participate in fun activities because of my weight was a depressing time for me.

I wont delete these ‘heavy day’ photos of me because I am using them as motivation and as a reminder to myself that I don’t want to go back to those days.  I was depressed, unhappy and unhealthy so to keep these photos around will help motivate me on those days I don’t want to work out.

   <—-This is me today

Looking good and feeling great!

 

 

 

 

 

This is me just over a year ago —->

Using photos like this as motivation to keep working out and eating well.